Day 11: Jaw Release, Cleansing n Water

Juice is my food. I sing to my juice as I prepare the nutrified fluid from vitally organic veggies, giving gratitude and affection to my liquid sunshine. A blessing if you will. Currently, I have an issue in my lateral, internal, deep area of my mouth and cheek just behind my farthest tooth on the right side of my jaw; something gritty is excreting. The grit I write of is not visible when I stick out my tongue or attempt to bring it from my mouth; it is very minute, emitting from my cheek/gum slowly and steadily. I feel strange swallowing, but what else do i do: swoosh and spit? Now that I have swooshed the area well and swallowed nearly a gallon of water and ingesting the grit, my bowels are truly moving. Forehead wants to say something; there is a sensation arousing at the glabella/third eye area. Simply the effect of so much alkaline/ionized water? I question. Whatever the cause, something is excreting from the side of my cheek/posterior gum; again and again (for hours now) after swooshing, my tongue returns with a certain grittiness. This spot in my cheek has been bothering me especially the past few days; the area is like a small scar. That's the best way to describe it. Hm, interesting. 

Yes, I have had an extensive amount of dental work: 13 or so mercury fillings placed between my teeth from drinking too much pasteurized fruit juice a few years back (so please brush teeth and do not slowly sip juice all through the day that is sweet!); had those fillings and one earlier cavity replaced in Mexico by a holistic dentist under protocol, who also removed and cleaned 3 cavitations from un-properly removed wisdom teeth as a child, and extracted a root canal tooth. Shockingly, all of these procedures were accomplished in one very long appointment, which lasted longer than the doc or I imagined (Wow, what a shocker (right). Never do this!). I remember coming-to a few times, bleerily gazing at the lady in front of me, begging in brief, stagnated blurs for more juice, the final time unable to receive any more at risk of shock to body. My own self-induced torture chamber, really! No way I'm walking out of Mexico, through the long line and beyond check points, in this state. Alone in Mexico (not the best idea post-appointment), after this amazing cleansing and hours of IV Make-Me-Loopy and Vit C, I stumble into a strange reality and realize we have extended our visit way beyond; darkness greets me outside as I fall into the car seat of the dental assistant's small vehicle. She graciously transports me to a nearby hotel where the deskman awaits my arrival. Deep breathing alone does not take away the headache emerging as some of the anesthesia dissipates, and I am alone in a room on a white bed trying to decide whether I am hot or cold. Blood is very minimal yet noticeable on the pillow as I fade in and out of estranged sleep, waking to the throb. I place my teeth together and feel the irregularites. Cellular phone reception is unavailable. I am truly alone, unable to contact expecting friends and family; alternate attempts do not succeed. In the fuzz of it all, a grand idea of lymph massage re-emerges. Yes, the front desk man attests to a spa that he recommends and I call; they are open and willing even though they are closing, assuring me the woman available does a lymph-style massage (something light and fluid at least). Placing my face in that cradle, I surrendered my body to this therapist for an hour of slight torture; she unevenly and aggressively muscled-through the session. After I received an amazing and other-worldly 4-hands massage at the clinic to prep my body/mind for the dental procedure, it seemed logical this would be a lovely idea. Wow, in my murky state I felt challenged to speak-up. 

I know I receive what I need in every situation (now working more deeply with set intention and manifestation), though at times the actual event channels in ways other than what I imagine. It was the best massage ever, in that moment! Needless to say, I followed this grand event with a 2-week detox and body/mind/ spirit healing at the Optimum Health Institute in San Diego based on Ann Wigmore's teachings. I recovered quickly there by drinking and implanting LOTS of wheat grass, doing a 3-day juice and water fast, eating a well-balanced raw diet, practicing yoga and taking classes on health and nutrition on many levels. Yeah. 

I wonder: is the loosening of my jaw through lack of eating and now less speaking now that Emily has left assisting a masseter/pterygoid release that is pushing this "grit" out? Maybe this is anesthesia inserted into a then-tense jaw finally leaving my body. Curiosity has loomed over the un-ending tightness of my right jaw for years, even after massive bodywork in the TMJ. Now, as it finally loosens, my cheek buzzes with excitement and this buzz refers through my body. Meridians begin and end at the teeth areas. Great, whatever it is. I feel wonderful through it all, with sporadic waves of nausea that leave no lasting impact.

Beyond this slight distraction of the jaw, the day has flowed quite smooth considering my 3 or so hours of sleep last night on account of an anatomy midterm this morning at which I did the BEST EVER! :). I have felt vibrant this afternoon, and now that the eve has arrived I tiredness sets its face to my cheek. To bed soon, I say. 

Juice:

1 QT Juice: Kale, spinach, celery, cucumber, tomato, Cilantro, random light green spicy pepper, garlic, onion, pinch black pepper, cayenne, dulse.

1QT Juice: Kale, celery, spinach, collard, cucumber, light green pepper, leek, cilantro, ginger.

Supplements: MSM water with lemon, Cell Food, Chlorella, B-12, ElectriFire (has Agave; want to stop), 1QT kombucha at school in lack of juice, enzymes