Back on solids, Day 59.

Okay yah yay yay YAY. I am feelin great, so very

grounded. All people in class today are excited to see me eating. I receive an applause and many smiles of appreciation. They 

supported me graciously through this and are happy to see that i will not be on the verge of passing out again any time soon with hypoglycemia reactions. Excellent. I feel great, all except for the decision to head to a Thai restaurant for green tea with Em craving some coconut soup. I ordered the raw green papaya salad, just topped with fresh squeezed lime and lemon. Delicious and filling and great for digestion, right. Well, the waiter, all smiles meeting my exuberance, decides to flirt a little, knowing we are veg heads, brings us veggie spring rolls (fried). We kindly accept the gift, grateful. In gratitude, we pray over them, I peel away the fried layers and eat the middle... dipping in the sauce, not thinking about the sugar content and possible other whatever that may be in it.  All ingredients are so fresh thus far, and so tasty-good in an all-natural kinda way. Less than the best. I breathe now and feel gratitude. All is healing, and i am fine. The P is itchy, and was itchy prior to Bangkok Garden. After writing a paper in Cayce Remedy class about the actions taken to rid body of P, teacher responds that it is time to tap into the emotional body. That will give the FULL healing i so desire. Great! Sounds easy... ha ha ha. Here i go! Still giving juice to body today: 

3/4 QT celery, dandelion, kale, lemon.

1 QT grapefruit juice.

Food:

1. Green Juice

2. Figs

3. Kale Salad

4. kombucha

5. Papaya Salad

6. Spring Rolls

7. Grapefruit Juice

8. Kale Salad

9. Smooth Move tea and tinctures

No eliminations thus far = kinda scary. So, supplements of Triphala necessary. Also, the herbs and tinctures from days past, probiotics, digestive enzymes, lecithin. Lovin. Castor oil pack.

Day 58; wait, is that really kale salad?!

Tour around
room.

Yes, 

oh yes, Ma'am

Yah
Yeah
Yes, yes, yes YUMMY yes it is. Thanks, Em. Love it, love it, love. Dear Mary, Jumpin' Jesus Jehosahfat, JAH - Buddha praise I love! I am now so very content in belly. Though it rumbles as it has done all day since colonic stirring, I feel better than ever! Sleepy, yes. Post 2-hr wonder sesh with lovely empress this afternoon at the A.R.E. for a practicum, a meditation in itself, some serious therapy, I crash to bed in bundle of bumble and green to sleep sound in peace--Ah! Day sleep is great! Waking three hours later, i attempt to make yoga and miss in switching of August schedule. Forget in the sleepy mind state, ooops. Oh well, just to get out and stroll sand with Em rejuvenated enough and tired enough to call it a work-out. Yeah, i was tired; the minimal juicing getting to me surely. Shoulda, woulda, coulda been juicing way more per day. Ah, spirit, i met you though. I meet you and we dance. We dance. In spirit i dance. And even as i eat today the nectar of the gods, semi-sweet tanginess of 3 figs nourish body and soul, i retain spirit, embodied by spirit, encapsulated in soul, sweet sweet soul, take me, rock me in your arms. Yet to ground i bow, rising yet more so to Sun, for i am now able to reach ground with heels and fly in likes of infinite heavens. Humbled so, and strengthened in the beat of time so supposed by Nature yet not in minds of mortals most encumbered by society. Anatomy test calls to me to study, and i say no, not now for the umpteenth time. P-lease! There are better things to do in this moment, i tell myself. Like breathe and research online. Love/hate relationship with electronics continues. Internal gasp at my semi-love connection with a silver box and shiney screen. Oh yes Oh yes. Say it ain't so. No wait, don't lie. After class this morn i am now certified (again) in CPR; cool. About that kale salad, it came to me after insatiable interest in miso and i am satisfied beyond measure by this decadent deliciousness. Luckily, i still excrete from anus and in these excretions i am fine by eating. Will review juicefeasting website again, as i have not checked into the site for a couple weeks. Surely David says to do mono for a while; just decided this eve to dive into the food that has called me since day 10. In doing this, my previous colonic treatments save me i believe, along with the enzymes and probiotics. Today the P shows face on rear central scalp; itch-itch, scratch-scratch. Tummy gurgles, and i know those yeasties are on their way OUT. OUT yeast, and i now welcome whole body/mind healing, clarity on all levels and optimum wellness, the prettiest pink bowels ever, and contentment in state of ease and confident knowing that all is well.

Juice:

2/3 QT celery, dandelion, kale, burdock, jerusalem artichoke, cilantro, lemon, ginger.

1 QT grapefruit juice

16 oz kombucha

1 QT miso broth

Supplements:

tad bit honey (icky in belly), miso paste, MSM and lemon, herbal tinctures mentioned in previous posts, oregano, Pau d'Arco, A&S Chomper, enzymes, probiotics, triphala, kale salad (kale, ACV, tahini, miso, black pepper, drop of stevia, sea salt), moisturized figs, pumpkin seed milk with cinnamon, Stone Breaker, lecithin.

Treatments:

Castor oil pack, lil foot massage from Em, sleep, love.

Day 57, WHAT!

Today Em writes this post, together we write. Yes, and what does she have to say, hmmmm? Em meets Gaya in the early morn at the bus station; she, radiant. We follow with sweet nap, curled together. Just as friends. No, NO, no, no, NO, no NO.  Alarm quickly calls to slumbering ears resting upon warm silken woman chest. Drool minimal. One hour sleep just barely cuts it for the night. Gaya with sleeping eyes, driven by Em to school for 9-ish departure to Hospital for practicum sessions with anyone who may walk by our massage chairs. In the zone, squeezing shoulders, rolling down backs with side of hands, smooth and with intent and deep meditation. One with Spirit. Tired at day's close, Gaya meets Em at school who carries to the porch for a shared lunch the miso broth. No tofu, just the juice. I prepare myself for re-entry into solids and our expedition into the City for raw restaurants and the sheer simplicity and increased energy for travel that DC and juicies do not indulge for her. Following miso broth lunch, Gaya pours through books on alternative medicine searching for entries on acne for an oral presentation during the next class of Cayce Remedies. Plus, there is scribbled the paper due for class on a remedy Cayce prescribed for a certain malaise of the body/mind/spirit. Mine, the P: Cayce 80 alkaline, 20 acidic diet, mainly raw fruits and veggies, nuts and seeds, american yellow saffron and slippery elm bark tea, chiropractic adjustments, series of 6 colonics (1 per week), castor oil packs (3 days on, 4 days off), ingestion of oils (hemp, flax & olive), lots of water, green leafy veggies and a positive frame of mind. The later is still in question, though it is truly my effort. I still feel a tagging at soul from an internal manifestation of pain, sorrow, or how else shall it be called... as it is masked like the black knight (on a black night). And I am left with a deeply subconscious feeling of-- hm-- stress. Yes, it is. What is it? Currently belly writhes and spits fire, cursing, moving with moans and aches. Must be happy after its colonic cleansing and cranial sacral therapy given in the late afternoon. Em and Gaya now lay together in a yellow floral bed with green puffy cloud covering, that little covers if anything at all. And her eyes grow more bulged in the grey that drowns southern lids of eyes. Sinking into the dismal abyss of sight beyond vision when one gets tired. Yes, Gaya is tired and does not want to admit that sleep just may be that missing link. And as clock ticks toward 3:30, a breath is necessary. Down computer, down. And Em pets herself with tip of fingers upon thigh, soft and sweet: goodnite.

Juices:

1/2 QT Celery, dandelion, cilantro, kale, burdock, jerusalem artichoke, broc, sprouts, bok choy, romaine, lemon, love.

1/2 QT grapefruit juice

2 QT miso broth

24 oz kombucha (not sweet)

2 bottles kombucha

Supplements: silver, Break Stone, meds for candida go go gog og og go away and other stuff that delusion in lack of sleep permits to be written. Oh yes, and there is that Castor oil pack. YUM.

Treatments:

Castor Oil pack, Colonic, Cranial Sacral

Ok, let me say a word fast-like for the treatments received at the A.R.E. today. The colonic therapist I saw today is recommended throughout Cayce/Reilly. I recommend them all, well, all six I've experienced at least. They truly do not hire slackers at this spa; it's fabulous. All seem well-trained and specified, still free to explore their own varying techniques in the style they choose, as long as it sells i suppose. Both the therapist and i are surprised at the amount of dark and solid mater emitting from my bowels. Some is thick, sticking to the sides of the tube, and of course there is also the runny dark matter, flecked with dark specks and thin wafer-type pieces about the size of a pinky fingernail. She says in her New York accent; "I'm gonna curse; this is really a lot!" Something of the sort. We were stunned, shocked, excited about the experience. Even after 57 days of juicing and some miso, kombucha, lecithin and the occasional green powder, there is clumpy cramping and serious secretion of dark ICK!  Cool. Better out than in. And as for the Cranial session, Katherine rocks! I love Cranial! It is energetic and calming to the nervous system, meditative, reflective, bringing me to Source. Yet still physiological and based well in structure. I come and go in attentive conscious connection with physical/mental reality, floating in ether in times between. Stress relieved. LOVE!

Juicin' on Day 56...

Coldplay concert absolutely beautiful, powerful and emotional. The lead singer trancing-out to his alternate dimension with band mates trailing along in the ethers of famed music land. 2 QT grapefruit juice and honey keep me in somewhat control around the full arena of people, along with some left-over tea and diluted non-mineralized carrot, spinach, celery, ginger drink from a non-organic source. i explained my situation to the weary door-check woman as hypoglycemia. Bewildered oblige. Juice bottle at the left a victim of traveling left-behind. i slept-in some this morn after a night of almost passing out while shooting photos in a park. Ick! Immediate departure to hotel for a kurplunk in bed followed by talking (mumbling) in sleep says Mike.  Interesting.  During day we also shopped around, tried on funky clothing, introduced Mike to Whole Foods (kid in candy store), played with fuzzy leaf.  Ah yes, and the MUSIC!!! Love the live music. Thanks Mr. Michael; you da bomb.   

Juices:

2 QT grapefruit juice

1 QT carrot, celery, spinach, ginger

16 oz kickin' antioxidant tea and agave

Supplements:

Some of the herbal pills and tinctures I brought with me.  :)  

Juice Feast Day 55.

Today is travel day via Greyhound, 6 1/2 hours to DC. Self-acclaimed Russian from Brooklyn, owner of Roma Dance, who trains many young kids to ballroom dance, competing as early as 4 professionally, approaches me eagerly to talk, asking the man at Greyhound if we would be traveling far together so he could have company with me. No, he changes over in Norfolk, so we talk 'til then, his largely freckled frame with thin, contorted R/L chest bobbing eagerly as he speaks. Very interesting character, at only Interesting how people are so drawn to me these days of opening. Manny tells me that he felt watched constantly by people in the grocery store last night, and when I explained this odd happening to him with me, he gave me an A-HA and explained what he felt in the grocery. Transfer in Richmond, brief. Bye-bye, Roma!  Artistically strolling bus terminal, wide-eyed and flamboyant, in total spirit, i feel seen. Then approaches dark-skinned boy-man with big smile who says he noticed me across the way and could not help but come and... and... and... then what? That smile illuminates. He speaks and i feel a sense of disappearance in him as i speak, and he thinks. From mind to body, body to mind. Spirit, boy? Spirit.  

Juice:

24 oz EverLasting Life Surprise w/ beets, celery, etc. 

16 oz green tea, honey, lemon, ginger

16 oz super potent anti-oxidant tea with agave

3 QT celery, lettuce, kale, cilantro, burdock, jerusalem artichoke. etc

Supplements:

A good amount of items, from what I've been taking in the past few. No castor oil pack today and no alternative treatments. Mike had said he'd fast with me in my marathon last week, no foods. After two days on solely water, he steps out; i am shocked! He cannot seem to reach beyond emotional uprisings. So we go to an Asian Bistro for dinner and he orders Gen Tso's Chicken, though this time with soy instead of animal... upon my request. Following dinner a since of ill creeps into Mike and he momentarily regrets his decision to eat the mountain of food (though he could truly only consume less than 1/4 of it. There i order the Miso. Mmmm, miso broth! 

Juicy-Juice Day 54.

New roomie Manny is home, beautifully, subtly and pleasantly here at the 316. We just fit. Yes. Musician and artist, he inspires. Very cordial and considerate, observant and adaptable. He is a beautiful soul and positive influence. i dig. I so sleepy and tomorrow to rise at 5 for a bus ride to DC to see Mike and do Coldplay at the Verizon Center. Excited. In joy for Emily and her adventures in juicing and growth beyond her wild imaginations, yet so within them. For we are which we create. Love. And she is sheer Love. 3 QT juice are juiced for tomorrow's trip. Blender blew a circuit, so A/C is off for the night. Welcome Manny! :). Now that the light bulb is unscrewed, he can sleep with fan and no light so all is, well, asleep... except me. So for those juices...

Juice:

24 oz carrot, celery, parsley, lettuce, kale

1 QT celery, kale, lemon.

1 QT orange juice.

Supplements:

See yesterday.

LOVE!  Love the post, Em. Thanks babe!

Juicing Day 53

Chug, chug, chuggin' along! Drinking the alkaline water, green juice, herbal tonics, lecithin water and teas. Peeing way too frequently. Wow how good it feels to be off school for the day. First semester comes to its closure. Today is spent inside, as lightening cracks and rain falls. Electricity goes out momentarily and i am left buzzing even more than before. Today is a day devoted to preparing the business card. Aim of studying for tomorrow's anatomy test foils. No worry; i know the stuff! Love the anatomy, just relaxing from months of studiousness. Too fun, too fun. Computer is my buddy today. I clear out the cobwebs of my email and clear the ol' inbox. Summer cleaning. My alkaline water is more alkaline than ever, thanks to the test tubes that relay how alkaline my water truly isn't. So i decrease the flow into the alkalizer and voila! The tester turns purple as Barney. Perfect; i can taste the difference. It's way more cleansing now. Today i sip the juice periodically, pouring from QT container into retro glass. Today is my last day of solo living and tomorrow moves in the new roomie, Manny. We went out last evening to meet and greet. A few sips of wine really took me to town! So much for that! Screwball dreams and all. Whoa no thanks! Not a fan of the alcohol really. I can even taste it in the kombucha now! Hmmm. I'll just say naw to that, thank ye. Do love the green juice. And now i am officially out of cucumber. As my O blood type does not tolerate them, i now may move into what? Oh yes straight celery with dense greens and herbs, roots and such. Those two are my main juicy veggies, the cuc and celery. Well, now what? What else is there? Carrots are too sweet in my urge to kill the candida and balance flora. All is lovely! 

Juices:

1 QT cucumber, celery, cilantro, lemon, collard, burdock, jerusalem artichoke

1 QT cucumber, celery, romaine

Supplements:

MSM w lemon, kelp, candex, Pau d; arco, Stone Free, OregaMax, GSE, Caprylic Acid, Kyolic garlic, lecithin, miso, NCD, Revive All, Silver, Tonics: A&S Nerve, Bladder/Urinary, HMD, Kidney Detox, ParaFreedom, Stone Breaker, Memory Revive, B Max, B-12, Bee Pollen, Inner Clean, Essiac Herbals, Probiotics, Coconut Oil, flax oil, Olive oil

Treatments:

Skin Brushing

Day 52

Well, today i want give into the review of my teachers and dwindle off the feast. Then Mike tells me he is going to fast this last week with me, encouraging me that I shall feel best getting to the goal of Day 60. Yes, he is probably correct, however I mostly aim to listen to the intuitive design of my higher self. What is she saying, i ask myself, the Zen goddess. She is weakened and a tad weary, just wanting some solid protein for the most part. The oil is fine, and yet the body craves more! Spirit, oh Spirit. Where shall i be? Here, she answers. Just where you reside. And that is where? At the point of your current existence. Contentment in the sheer being. Just be true. Be honest. Be strong and lively and meditative. Listen. Oh dear listen. 

Chiropractic appointment today truly opens my side body, really releasing psoas, QL, erectors, abdomen and fascia around organs especially on right side body. I am renewed. She works me over and over, cracking, twisting, pressing, and releasing. It is true healing magic therapy.

Juice:

2 QT green goodness.

Supplements:

MSM, lecithin, herbs as before, castor pack, skin brushing, yoga, kombucha, miso, honey, tea, saffron.

Day 51

So everyone tells me to start eating now; "you have become entirely too thin. i did not notice this before you worked on me. It is wearing you down!" My teacher tells me this today after my practicum with her. Yikes.  i do weigh 120, that's 115 lbs or more lost since starting.  Guess it is time!  I reached my peak and now it is time to start eating solids again. It is scary, and just in the intake of simple miso I am brought back to a resemblance of physicality. Surely i no longer ride mostly in that spiritual realm.  I can easily juice again; no need be stressed though. I suppose that even though I desired to go 'til day 60 on juice, I am willing to let go and let god(dess). Will soak the prunes tomorrow. This has been an amazing journey, and I am thrilled to have experienced such an opportunity!  My emotions brought tears today, and i am sad in a way to come down from this space of high, yet thankful to ground again.  Three massages really wore me out this afternoon. 

I notice I am working with non-judgement, and today i am challenged with Emily concerning this topic. After our fabulous spiritual discussion last eve, i suppose that i simply flared-up today in opposition of that opening and placed that judgement. Ah well. Time sync and non-judgement = my journey today.  Lessons to be learned. lessons learning. Lesson learned.

Juices:

2 QT celery, cucumber, jerusalem artichoke, burdock, wheatgrass, parsley, ginger, prickly pear, collard, romaine

 

Supplements:

everything from yesterday. lots of bee pollen.

Treatments:

Epsom salt bath, skin brushing, castor oil pack

Holy Day 50!

YIN.

So imma just start with these pics and say that the day opened with our class at the Retirement home at the hospital, with massage chairs in the front room, a place full of inquisitives, one grumpy woman with disturbed peace (or so she kept telling us), sleepy-eyed exits, exuberant workers, one groaning, oh-ing and ah-ing panty-less woman wanting a man with broad shoulders and a thin waist next time we come (alright, grandma, order's up). And eventually, people begging to come back, and even sneaking in a few more minutes under our hands. What an adventure! The final woman of my afternoon came to me with spinal arthritis and 2 cases prior of cancer; ten minutes insufficient, i worked double and was reprimanded. Oops, bag it teach! The entire time at the Hospital i felt almost anti-terrestrial and totally in the ethereal.

During lunch with the ladies, some g-juice, miso soup (broth only) and green tea sippage included, I eye the fresh raw sushi grade tuna with delight. Hmmm? Ceviche is recommended for my raw-ness should i so desire to go there in the future... yikes! The broth immediately gives me energy and a much greater sense of grounded-ness... wudda ya know?! such little alternative liquid and I am back to life, back to reality. Death has been coming to mind, like in the Celestine Prophecy when the human figure reaches a state of disappearance... the oneness with spirit, death of the physical. Wonder if i was truly invisible during those brief moments. Post lunch comes Cayce holistic remedies class, during which we learn about liver and kidney cleanses, natural remedies for arthritis, back pain, sciatica, diabetes. Very interesting, though my energy flops, sending me for a delicious kombucha (no good for me with candida)? Then i go for my integrative chiropractic appointment-- like, WHOA! This is def. my practitioner, i think to myself. She goes diligently deep in the ribs, twisting body, cracking spine, loosening side body and sacrum, releasing carpals and hands in general, getting in the abdominal cavity with psoas fusion and even inviting me to feel my kidneys. An adventure in itself! I rise dizzy, rejuvenated and a bit discombobulated. Time to clear. Time to be clear! I am cleared. I am clear! In a strange space, I head to Heritage and grab a little tub of honey, fizzy water, Epsom salt, anti-candida armor and head home to get down with some South River Golden Millet MISO! This really settles me to study for my Anatomy Final. So, here i go to Castor pack n' get down with the body. Wahoo! What an incredible day. 

Juice:

1 1/5 QT celery, lemon, cucumber, wheatgrass, parsley, romaine, burdock, jerusalem artichoke, broccoli sprouts, ginger.

Supplements:

MSM, lemon, lecithin, kelp iodine, Revive All, Max B, Silver, Memory Revive, HMD, Arise and Shine herbs, Bladder & Nerve tonic, Pure Radiance C, A&S herbs (last of), NCD, Stone Breaker, ParaFreedom, Olive Oil, Coconut oil, flax oil, B-12, CalMag, Kidney detox, Wormwood and Black Walnut, OregaMax, Kyolic Garlic, Caprylic Acid, GSE, Pau D'Arco, Stone Free... watch out candida and bacterias! You gonna get it!

Treatment:

Chiro Expanded, Castor pack.

Day 49 it is!

I float with Spirit! 

Yoga begins the day at 

9:30, post lemon and MSM action. A bit tentative for my first class of what they call OceanFlow, i appear at the door, turn around as class is begun, and walk down the hall only to be followed by lovely Melanie who invites us inside. These Ocean waves today roll with a bit of wind and strength, Me riding among them. Flowing through the ocean of yoga, we pretzel and wrap ourselves within and around ourselves, balancing on upper arms in wicked-cool twists! Coming from the pretzel into chataranga remains a mystery of feat to be (oh yeah, near-face-plant, I welcome thee). I love this class, and we have been awaiting one another's readiness patiently! 

Next trip, Heritage, proves itself no less an adventure as I gear up with greens and head inside to hand to the people across the counter some greens of choice; we may purchase greens in-store and they juice them! It's great and very helpful on those days of delay. Wheat grass shot down, I head into the music, clothes, books, etc side of the store to observe and piddle. A woman catches my attention; she sits at a table in the corner of the store with some equipment and a big genuine smile. "Whatever you're doing, it is Working," she tells me emphatically, not even knowing who i am or what i'm doing. "Before you leave, I must show you how you look right now," she follows. After a line at her table comes to its briefest pause, I sit on a chair behind her little camera hooked into a computer and tell her about the juicing. She repeats, "Well, it is Working!" I smile joyously for the camera and place my hand on some silver circles of a pad; i feel it reading me-- whoa~ SO i suppose she likes what she sees, as her face illuminates while looking at the pic. In it, I am surrounded with white and fringed by faint yet brilliant royal purple. Continuing, she explains that I am currently 85% spirit, 10% mind and 5% body, a state she may reach through deep meditation. And here i am walking around all soaked with spirit. No wonder i feel so easily persuaded into meditation deeply. Magic. Sheer glorious intended magic of juice! Yin and yang are balanced; juice feasting is mostly yin in nature so my yang essence shows evidence. She is excited for what I am doing and expresses her joy to see me in two months after I begin eating raw and become grounded into a wonderfully new empowered Self. As I leave, she hugs me tightly and affirms my goddess-hood while giving gratitude for my willingness to sit for her. Terrific, splendid information, even more than mentioned here! 

With a quick expedience, i exit Heritage in haste, "late" for my 2:45 colonic appointment. We begin with an hr and 1/2 MLD therapy session which begins with me shivering in doubt that I may actually relax in my current state of 115 lb-thin with A/C blowing directly on my body from the window unit. Blanket uncovers limbs that lock-up! Soon, she turns the air off and i relax more fully into subtle yet strong pulsations in body, one I recognize from previous sessions: a twitch that seems to lengthen my left leg and shorten the right. Hm?! In and out of meditative trance I roam as mouth occasionally waters from lymph movement. 

Then comes the impressive colonic. My therapist is stunned that even after 48 days of juice I release so much solid matter. She is truly amazed! Some of it is gunky, goey sticky-icky.  Beet juice from last night runs red through the tube. Some flakes of deep dark brown leave my body also. "You've released almost double the water I put inside you," she tells me after explaining my true need of drinking water because if not I may be endangered. Yikes, ok then... water it is!

(now sipping) This evening I head to a local raw food potluck on request of a friend. After such a day, energy wanes. So i sip down an ElectriFire and go give 'em what i got. They ask all about the feast, and we also discuss yoga, fish eating, Raw Spirit Fest, personal spiritual practice and various other tid bits intertwined. I leave after about one hr and return to my wonderful abode for laundry, morrow's juice and tonic prep and an Epson salt and Detox oilbath: glorious flowious! Tibetan monk music sounds from speakers in bedroom as I type. Supposed to align chakras. I am excited about today and look forward to the school week, reminder emerging to remain here in this present moment... "be here now." And here I am!

Today I experience back pain along the right erectors between scapula and lumbar. In my auric photo, the field is fairly well-formed except the slightest dip at the upper right side. The lady did ask if I have pain on the right side. yes. P is lighter. Right shoulder a bit achey. Mental state clear. Sensitivity to outside energy (people, esp. groups, phone, plants, etc) heightened.

Juices:

1 1/2 - 2 QT Cucumber, celery, parsley, leek, garlic, kale, lettuce

1 oz wheatgrass

8 oz grapefruit (50/50 water n lemon w/ it)

Supplements:

MSM w/ lemon, saffron, detox tea, kelp, FlorAll's Revive All Flower essence, Soverign silver, HMD, A&S herbs and tonic (Bladder/urinary and nerve), Pure Radiance C, NCD, Stone Breaker, ParaFreedom, Kidney detox, Wormwood/Black walnut tincture, Memory Revive, olive oil, coconut, flax oil, lecithin, GSE, Candex, B-12, B Stress Max, CoQ10, Essiac Herbals, Bell Herbal tea 4b, CALMAG, ElectriFire, bee pollen.

Day 48!

Yeha. 

<--B.P.

Great Sleep-In shesh n Awesome show today called Project Revolution hosted by Linkin Park left me surprisingly super excited and ready for more live music. We arrived around 4:30 just in time for the Street Drum Corps, a firey, incredibly ritualistic sounding tribal like furious toredo tornado of sound and drumming, even on trash cans. Oh was i moving, like back n forth in my seat... a bit overwhelmed on the juice yet joyous. We had a blast with the music, and after sitting for Ashes Divide, watching in wonder at the highly emotional rockers blasted off on stage. Following was the Bravery, then Chris Cornell (think Sound Garden singer, with a rippin' bod and majestic vocals), then of course Linkin Park. I was absolutely blown away by Linkin Park. Both them and Cornell rocked the house, announcing with glee that this is a perfect night with optimal weather and a truly energizing crowd. I freakin love the Linkin Park now; yes, surprisingly I am a fan! They sound great, feed and fuel wonderful energy and stand for glorious causes. yes, my energy waned on and off throughout the show and still i danced like a princess banchee of Mars. Excessive bee pollen is the answer indubitably.  Mike agrees, mouths full of the yellow gooey goodness.  Driven by the bee energy, we buzz and bounce, ducking and swinging our tails, stingers out! Fun times for sure! I love it. 

Juices: 

Juiced at the Heritage, about 2 or 3 QTS (YAY Heritage, you rock!)

1/2 QT grapefruit juice

Supplements:

MSM with water, A&S, Frequency, bee pollen, tinctures, B MAX, B-12, ElectriFire, enzymes, and other stuff i cannot recall.

FUN!

Juice Feasting Day What? 45, 46, 47...

I am pooped. Two nights no sleep. Four hrs last night finally. Almost passed out yday at school, well i got really so they tell me hypoglycemic. Sweaty, dizzy and such. Bed for now, talk later. Much to say, like Cranial and wow too tired. k ...

Juice:

little more than 1 QT celery, cucumber, parsley, bok choy, kale, carrot.

Day 44: ewww, ahhhh... double fours, i like.

So, yes this is day 44. What a yummy day of exploration. Anatomy test this morn flows in a fairly smooth fashion after my 4 am attempt at waking, followed by about 2 hours of alternating long-term snoozes and music. I'm out of the shower by about 6:30, ready to make my morning MSM concoction and settle-in for a short study fest. Gloriously, i tread through papers, flashcards and books; amazing, my mind is working well without much sleep. YES! 'Bout time. Though the think-think-think of test-taking plays tricks on me, i finish with an A... last one out of the classroom again (same as last test taken during juicing extravaganza). All's well. Directly after class, i call Dr. Pagano in New Hampshire for our telephone appointment to discuss the P; he's an expert (Healing Psoriasis: The Natural Alternative). He gifts me with plenty of new info upon which i may reflect, first suggesting i lower my fruit juice consumption to 1-2 glasses a day (a-hum, not 1-2 QTS!), then suggesting Oolong tea in a proposal that i probably have both the P and eczema! In addition, i am to drink saffron water through the day instead of as a tea 1-2 times a day (1 tsp American Yellow Saffron and 1 gal mt spring water; boil water and steep saffron 20 min, strain and place back in gal jug; drink 1-2 glasses a day). I'll prolly just use a glass jar and ionized water. Should be A-ok. He mentions a new book just released by himself entitled One Cause, Many Ailments which surely incorporates Cayce remedies, etc. The book mentions Leaky Gut Syndrome as a main factor for illness. As for diet, he tells me to go 80% alkaline and 20% acidic. Staying clear of a state of extreme alkalinity is even more important than being too acidic. The most beneficial, he says, is fish. Duh-du-DUHHHH! The darker and oilier, the better: blue fish, mackerel, tuna, yellow fish, herring, halibut, salmon. Damn, this is gonna be tricky. Sticking to the raw, i may go raw with sushi or sushimi as long as i get very fresh fish. Love my vegifarian ways, though open for new insight. A go, at least! In explaining P, he says skin is doing what bowels and kidneys should be doing. Nearing the end of our wonderful conversation, i bring candida into the picture. He releases a big A-ha, and we begin again. My scribbles: The Kybalion, transmutation, polarity, frame of mind, change spectrum. See self as having things i want, think only of what i do want, not reflecting on anything other than this. Keep mind fixed on goal and let creative forces do the rest. I do not have to figure it out. Set what i want; it's all there! These messages continue to appear to me. Time of action is now. For candida, his strongest suggestions are active cultures, Lactobacillus, olive oil and garlic. One doc Pagano knows puts a few clients on 20 tsp a day. "This is not necessary, though." Well, what a relief 'cause otherwise I'd be carrying around a bottle of olive oil with me everywhere, taking breaks from class to slip off and sip some oil. Yummy! Plain yogurt is another great option, however he says the live cultures are just as well. As for juicing, he says the strongest options are lettuce, parsley, garlic, onion, spinach, celery and possibly some carrot if it agrees. So, that's that. I'm ready. 

Juices:

1 QT OJ (oops, pre-made What? must be consumed).

24 OZ carrot, celery, garlic, cucumber, parsley

Supplements:

kelp, Radiance C, FlorAlive Revive All, Arise and Shine Bladder and Nerve tonic, ParaFreedom, Silver Hydro, HMD, Stone Breaker, Kidney Detox, Max Stress B, A&S herbs, CoQ10, enzymes, probio's, chlorella, B-12, MSM with lemon water, Oolong tea, saffron tea, flax & olive oils (1 TB each), Candex, GSE, lecithin, Wormwood/black walnut tincture (been on this for the past few days also).

Treatments and exercise:

• 15 minutes green ray (nothing pivotal, just a great sense of easy in nervous system and slight ease to right lumbar area- QL maybe)
  
• Moon Salutations yoga 1 1/2 hr class at OceanFront (i love)
• Chiropractic treatment (Dr. Nelson is amazing and truly guru in his field. Love his alternative methods that weave with regular spinal adjustments, sacral & coccyx, polarity stretches, abdomen energetic charge. he is not scared to freakin' Crack it, then go subtle... i love. BTW, Cayce suggests spinal adjustments in the treatment of psoriasis. Goes like this, as suggested by Pagano in his Healing P book: To be administered after 1st colonic & cont. 1 x week for 12 weeks. Treatments center around 6 and 7 dorsal, 3 cervical, 9th dorsal & 4th lumbar vert. May need more sessions for stubborn P. Carl Nelson in particular once worked with Meridian Institute, now dismantled sadly, to administer adjustments for P patients as they participated in a full Cayce protocol together for research.)
• Spontaneous Kegel pulsations (oh my! i read about bicycle riding being great for urinary incontinence, which I developed slightly with the P back in London 6 years back)
• skin brushing

Zen studies in Alan Watts' Spirit of ZEN assist my creativity greatly and expand me into a natural state of being. i will attempt to review the main points. Zen is a "process of unlearning" (a concept i reflected greatly in my explorations post-institutional University education), "abandonment of ideology" and "fixed forms of thought." He mentions the mind grasping its own life. "Zen is the essential experience underlying Buddhism... is closer to the unspeakable level of reality... non verbal, non symbolic, indefinable world of concrete as distant from abstract... Originally not one thing exists." I like this one, "A proper explanation of Zen should tease us out of thought, leave the mind like an open window instead of a panel of stained glass." The true Nature of reality! 

So post studying-meditation i fully free write, pen in meditation, within Zen flavor (my fave). Through writing in this manner, i allow my inner healer to emerge on paper (along with whatever else awaits in the folds of subconscious consciousness... to be heard--or not at all, who knows? no matter--by those with eyes, doors of perception). Suppose i'll share here:

This orange juice, pulpy and yummy as it is, causes scratches at occiput, bubbling stomach, solar plexus profusely begins to halt influx of toxins. O blood types fare not well to its fruit and secretions of luscious, tangy-sweet orange; its acidity putrefies insides and breaks down beneficial barriers of intestinal tract. Yoni yearns, Kegel clinches to soothe its searching. From Zen i am arisen, zen i shall live 'til zen at dust becomes me, to be true fruit of the Earth, cosmic Creator of our own consciousness, exalted by our own means, and thus tormented in the same-- if we choose (or not, choice is ours), or have chosen in past pulsations of pre-rhythmic body-being. Juice of the orange sits in meditation within jug upon woven Indonesian table-runner atop wooden antique dresser-drawers, reflecting light like that which rests inherent in each of us, awakening attuned invitation, a call to un-cocoon and bloom to a state of existence anew to every and all, fresh in each moment, every breath-- with purposeful, un-proposed attention, divinity arisen from the stars that speak through soul to the wholeness within that's nothing but nothing, like a flower that folds upon itself, sheds pedals like tears to regenerate as soil that nourishes mouths of all kingdoms-- like trees that sway to beats of breeze and breath of bats & bald eagles upon limbs, even biting bark as bugs, bounteous recyclers like tornadoes twisting reality that was, oh never to be again, but again in other form once again 'til never-more reborn. Torn like flesh in teeth: which way to go? Quit tugging. Jaw jerks, hurts, mandible masticating meat makes sickly and sick to think; secrete toxins too of mind, for what that's found beyond these bounds becomes One with non-conformed soul (we are) transformed to find mind a needle in birthday cake. Take another bite? Does Time bite back when hands tick backward? Lords of destiny, dare thy mock, for in stock an arsenal of affirmations; might Tick sway such revelations or transform in "twist of time?" Turn to face the folds of folly and fold all fears affront the shadow, showing face in mirror that awaits against reflection of orange pulp in plastic: Sip, or step through?---

Juice Fest Day 43!

Alrighty, this day has been pivotal! How do i begin? Must be brief, anatomy test tomorrow. Cayce Remedies class today feeds my intuition. Green Ray Therapy post-class soothes chronic pain in QL on right side; while sitting in front of it, back to the green light and feeling whirly, i wait for 10-ish minutes. There is a slight and subtle pop in this area, and no more pain. Wow. With instructor, a classmate and i discuss emotional relationship to the P. Issues of Loss of Power and "not being good enough" emerge. She relates to me: I must ask myself, why am i afraid to step into my own power? What is selfishness, really: something placed upon me from outside perceptions? What in my life is a parasite? Why am i scattered? i shall meditate upon these thoughts and ask what i can do to get info to heal this. i shall look into a striking suggestion of Past Life Regression. Ask where... She strongly suggests past lives. Yes, there may be a link to the Mother. However, this usually deals with the past lives, she tells me. So here i go to the previous lives. What happened to me as a Zen Master? she asks. I meditate and receive an image of a stab to the abdomen. Zen Warrior or Zen monk? Are these lives one in the same or separate? A feeling of nausea and deep emotions arise within while having this experience in meditation. i leave this, and come back to sitting by the ocean on a bench. it is done for now. Solar Plexus and abdomen, areas of power, self empowerment. Will watch for relevance in days to come and continue to meditate even though i shy away from it in hesitation. Fear? Today, she also mentions the fear factor in dealing with psoriasis. Yes, fear to step into my own power. Hmmmm. Connection? In reference to the candida, she says this is emotional and to look at anger mainly and feeling scattered. "Psoriasis is fear of being hurt; your skin protects you," she writes on my paper at the close of my list of items in our "Daily Diet" homework, for which we write our current eating regime. At the spot for "other comments," i mention the P and candida issues in my body. She responds in reference to our blood types; being type O, i need lots of protein. "When you eat raw and sprouts, you are getting protein - how is your energy," she writes. Yes, when eating raw i have energy, post detox. Still, thoughts of raw fish dance wearily in my head. Am i craving these items? i ask myself. After class, she muscle tests me for parasites and candida; i hold my right hand in a particular "mudra" and she pushes my left arm down to see if it falls. it is strong at first, prior to placing the mudra. A class mate also tests; she seems clearly sure she has issues with them and yet shows strength both times her arms are pushed downward, so her body is in balance with bacteria. As for me, even before her hand pushes mine down (not a hard push here, just light), even as she approaches, i feel weak and queezy; needless to say, i got some issues here, grrrl! More parasite and candida cleansing. Fruits are fine for me, she says. Just need to supplement GSE & CandiGone and meditate on issue at hand for alternative relevance. Then, voila! i shall be healed :). 

Juices:

1 QT collard, celery, cucumber, cilantro, jerusalem artichoke, burdock, lemon

1 QT all of the above except collard.

1 QT pineapple, lemon, mango (ha-ha-ha on juicing this goo!)

Suplements:

MSM with lemon n water, Flor Alive Revive All, Memory Revive, Arise and Shine herbs, ParaFreedom, Silver Hydrosol, Heavy Metal Detox, Nerve Tonic, Stone Breaker, Kidney Detox, Max Stress B, CoQ10, Enzymes, Probiotics, B-12, chlorella, lecithin, olive oil, flax oil, sleep!

Exercise n treatments:

skateboarding, Green Ray, short meditation

:) Love.  

Juice Feasting Day 42

Wow, what a day! M-M-M! I'll just call it emotional, with some tears and anger like from outrage of liver/gut. P is on the bazerk, ear lobes n' all! Pain in the cleansing of dusty baggage. And after a lighter-colored colonic my intestines are drained, as am i. An amazing 30 minute full Cayce massage soothes soul and body and mind and nerves... the whole gamut. Such gratitude for the Cayce spa here in Va Beach. What a splendid, blessed place to receive an education and treatments. i am blessed. Giving further blessings to a wonderful, nourishing, deeply soulful Emily Rose who challenges, inspires, touches and speaks with such genuosity. Yes, i thank you for all of you, EmRose. True Spirit Empress! For such cooperation with my shifting emotions, I am ever grateful. An endearing, enduring woman full of love, no doubt! Vision to better self, rise up and cleanse, shine, powerful and majestic.

Juices:

1/2 QT celery, cucumber, collard, cilantro, sprouts, jerusalem art, lemon.

1 QT orange juice

1 QT celery, cucumber, sprouts, jerusalem artichoke, cilantro, celery root, burdock, lemon

Supplements:

MSM and lemon water, kelp, Radiance C, Flor Alive Revive All, Memory Revive tonic, Arise and Shine herbs, ParaFreedom, Silver Hydrosol, Heavy Metal Detox (HMD), Nerve Tonic, Stone Breaker, Kidney Detox, Max Stress B, Essiac herbals, CoQ10, enzymes, probio's, lecithin, saffron tea, chlorella, spirulina, VM Green pow, hemp & flax & olive & coconut oil (w/ butter), B-12.

i love you.

Juice Feast Day 41

I enjoyed this day with EmRose. Yummy mango juice and lovely post-dusk walk on the beach. Settling into my over-the-hill part of the feast! Love!

Juice:

1 QT cucumber, celery, spinach, dandelion, sprouts, burdock, jerusalem artichoke, jalapeno.

1 QT pineapple, mango, coconut

1/2 QT grapefruit juice

1 QT orange juice

Supplements:

MSM and lemon water, B-12, B-Max, tinctures (kidney detox, Nerve, silver, HMD, bladder, Revive All floral essence, kelp), coconut oil, slippery elm tea, Stone Breaker, Arise and Shine herbs, lecithin, enzymes, probiotics, spirulina, CoQ10, Essiac.